Julius is 42 years old and incarcerated in the US (TX).
Dear Potential Friend,
I believe in individuality and personally understand that we all are surprisingly creative in the innovations of our personality circuit. Though we live in a nonlinear world, we are intriguingly linear in most of our interactions. Though I am currently on Texas Death Row, there isn’t much difference from living a freer life under more governmental regulations as I, too, am under regulations. Therefore, I am inclined to believe life is more simplistic than complex, or at least, this is what I have observed when dialoguing with reasonable minds. It is my desire to fill my existence with that standard of being that is highly proactive.
I enjoy good reading; more educational than novelty. I am physical and take pleasure out of exercising. I’m easily able to talk to about all the mysterious entertainments of being human. Smiling! You know, an healthy exchange of cognitive communication that leads to practical solutions and a hearty release of pent-up frustrations.
It would be a real pleasure to be up and close with simulative conversational exchange, to better gauge extralinguistics- body language says a lot. Smiling! I am a 42 year-old adventurous mind that likes to explore the delicate intricacies of the human condition.
Therefore, I am looking for reasonable minds I can further develop longevity with and to systemize better structure for the evolution of creativity in a friendship-relationship. Feel free to be yourself for I will only offer a relief from too much stereotypical-minded behaviorisms and secrecy.
I like music, preferably alternative and active rock but take pleasure in most genres of music. I look forward to developing a more structuralized system of self-actualization and close with words from Donella H. Meadows’ book “Thinking in Systems: A Primer”:
“At a time when the world is more messy, more crowded, more interconnected, more interdependent, and more rapidly changing than ever before, the more ways of seeing, the better. The systems-thinking lens allows us to reclaim our intuition about whole systems and
• hone our abilities to understand parts,
• see interconnections,
• ask “what-if” questions about possible future behaviors, and
• be creative and courageous about system redesign.
Then we can use our insights to make a difference (in our personal investments) in ourselves and our world.”
Julius J. Murphy
Seeing You Face-to-Face
At the moment you first corresponded
Thoughts caressed my mind
Like the gentle hands of a friend,
Lover or confidante-
I was stimulated by visions of you.
They came as inspiration to my delight
moments of encouragement when down
And they brought strength and warmth,
to motivate me in my weakened moments.
They penetrated my mind with visions
and words full of meaning.
Your letters painting a perfect image
in my mind of seeing you face-to-face.
Written by: Julius J. Murphy
Layers of Imperfection
Layers of imperfections are such complexities that tend to blind the psyche, and make any person more prone to focusing on what they see as an inconsistency- an issue in their lives. They base all of their emotional problems on these layers of imperfections.
The bad thing about this is they keep that person from seeing how well-balanced they actually are. They actually make us more effective in the areas of our lives that we most need. They benefit our personality most handsomely. There’s something to be said about blindness to one’s perfections: they make you more pursue them unconsciously.
To you, they are external; because you reflect the outside world in your psyche. The funny thing about this is that you’re seeing imperfections while the world is seeing perfections. As with all layered personalities: one will find it has more structure, that is consistent with that complexity it serves. Perfection is the pulling back of all imperfections or the correction thereof.
Imperfections are the total opposite: it is the dissatisfaction and the finding of some fault when there is no fault.
One can become self-absorbed to the point you feel you personally don’t add up. Adding up is always outward, it is what we have to amount to, what we must see through the eyes of others. This is actually the basic principle or standard of living that we’ve evolved from and further into.
Written by: Julius J. Murphy
Otherness: Is Oneness
The way we are in each other’s minds is the way we are in one another’s physical life. What every person has to understand is that the physical comes before the nonphysical. Mind is for all purposes nonphysical. In fact, one of the reasons mind is over matter in the texts, is because all of our accomplishments come from our capacity to envision them as we would want them. So in our mind we think in terms of familiarity: knowledge of what is known. Otherwise our minds would be this blank canvas that has no representative that directs us about revealing to us the reason for the piece of art we’re beholding; it would have no significance.
Life and the Earth is the greatest work of art we could have been gifted with. Why? There’s nothing hidden from our view that we take a healthy interest in- we can make art. We are given every opportunity to invest, ingest and involve our faculties for whatever we believe it will bring us. This gives our mind a solid footing. So whenever it comes down to utilizing our mental capacity, we do so on a sensory/visual platform.
It is never meant to be distant. If it were why does it cause us to want to see and feel in terms of up and close; physically? We should think about that. It all starts now in our minds. We’ve left from “seeing is believing” to “believing is being.” We see all the time. The only time we stop is when we’re asleep.
Just closing our eyes is seeing. And as soon as we want to see with our eyes closed a visual of what we want to see pops up on our mind’s eye. So we were meant to know it even without eyes closed.
So why not –with eyes open- pursue that which we know as we see it? If we confuse this process we will cease over a period of time to even attempt to dream or even fantasize. So where will the ingenuity go, the will to create in our own image that we’re intended to believe. Belief is a process of coming into a certain system of self-actualization.
It is taking all the evidence and composing our own personal system of governance. It is how we view the world as how it operates for us and our intimate- personal self.
I just had a thought, recalling what a friend once told me… “Yes, and I can be with some people but feel so totally distant whereas I can be with other people just in my brain or in my heart and I feel so totally close.” So I asked her: “With whom do you do this other than with me? Everyone else you do this with, you physically spend time with. So this cannot be correct. Others like Tommi’s mother you very seldom think of her except when nearing her birthday or some special time during the year. Or, am I incorrect? I could think of others, Sandra, your female co-workers, etc. But why would you spend much time thinking about those you see every day when you spend quality time with them all the time, except when doing something for them in their absence or when they’re somewhere on their own like Emma at the North Sea? Just curious.”
I often sit on my mattress and think out loud to myself about where I am at here in this period of my life. Who all is contributing to it and what it means to me. If it can be better or if it will continue on as it is.
Si I pose questions like: “What does it mean for you to be close to someone?” “What does talking to them in your mind do for you?” “What does it encourage in you?” “What does it enable you to physically want?”
For me, all the above is only one thing: to physically be with them and spend time with them and caption that time, so we can have something to show for it. The pictures sent and received, the gifts sent and received, the letters written and received; etc. All they do is make us see someone in our minds; to think of them. If any of us don’t have anything to look back on physically to that experience –that moment in time- to say what something or someone meant to us, we will have a lack within our hearts, there’s no entanglement emotionally.
Our memories would never have a record of that interaction. That would not be considered as closeness. I say this because our minds operate as the same system of the brain. This is why when we utilize our mind, our sensory (physical organs) are also utilized. When we use our brain, our mind silently observes what we’re doing. The brain has to impulse via nerve-endings. The mind has no such impulses or nerve-endings. So, in order for the human self-image that is one of the aspects/capacities of the mind that enables anyone of us to direct our free will to be expressive- it has to enter into the confines of our neural capacity.
The information we process to sequentialize becomes our personal, albeit intimate assessment of what we are and want to do. This is how we know well ahead of time what we’re going to do, will do, and will not allow. So the mind and brain utilize their platforms: the brain, which is part of the so-called material world, the third-person perspective (the mind, the psychological world, the first-person perspective). This is how we can utilize our minds to feel close to others from such long distances and feel it in our physical being.
Minds transcend space and time but our brains cannot. You can only see where you are, the mind can see anything your brain has processed at some point in time. So we see how our minds will bring us to want our physical being where we’re mentally focused on. And vice-versa.
For all express purposes, brain is outward while mind is inward. We cannot see mind because mind is everything we have created- so we utilize our brains to see, know, hear, touch, taste and feel our way through it all. But if we will to effect/affect, we have to use our minds.
Think about it… all of the memories we have, all of the desires, etc. Where is it stored in the brain? All we know about physical elements of this thing called life, is that they are stored somewhere. Thoughts have a sort of weight because one thought can change how you feel at any moment. And it feels as if it’s a pressure upon us when that impulse secretes the hormones that signal to the body and mind it is experiencing this emotion or condition.
When we cut the brain open what do we see? Nothing but veins and muscle. Go into your kitchen and what do you see? Places you can store items that serve to bring meaning to your life. In fact, everywhere we go, we have places we can place something. The mind is that place our brain stores all of the information in process. However, it strings it to process it in moments of our lives. Our brain is a stream of consciousness of the “here and now.” That is it. So, when we’re talking about brain, it is about people and objects around us. Mind is people and places and times somewhere else we want to affect.
So, if it’s for closeness we pursue, we must keep in mind, brain/mind are always interchangeable- they work with each other to effect/affect what they enable us to accomplish. We must never cause our brain/mind to be incomplete. There will always be a lack that can be felt. And they will reveal what that is through your physical senses.
Written by: Julius J. Murphy
• Date of Birth: 10/25/1978 (42 years old)
• Gender: Male
• Marital Status: Single
• Sexual Orientation: Straight
• Race: Black or African American
• Ethnicity: N/A
• Eye Color: Brown
• Hair Color: Bald
• Height: 6 ft.
• Body Type: Average
• Hometown: Texarkana, Texas (USA)
• Spoken Languages: English
• Religion: Jewish
• Astrological Sign: Scorpio
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• Incarcerated Since: 1997
• Sentence Received: Death
• Earliest Release: N/A